We have heat! It feels like a little miracle. The boiler man came today and fixed it in about ten minutes. I was so glad. Yesterday was very, very cold and I wasn't looking forward to another day like that. But now we don't have to. Heat! Yay!!
Had a very quiet weekend. Our local grocery store has surprisingly started selling crawfish. I was delighted and bought a bunch to make jambalaya. I made a big pot of it on Saturday and Tobes and I ate loads of it. I'm so pleased that he's open to trying new foods. Or at least I was until he started vomiting jambalaya all over our bed at 2.30am.... then again at 3.00....3.30....4.30.....5.00. What a night. To top it all I stumbled downstairs around 3am for water and dry crackers, forgot to turn off the motion sensors and set our burglar alarm off. I'm sure the neighbors appreciated that.
Nothing like tripping over things in the dark, stepping on Legos, stripping the bed while half asleep and trying to care for a sick baby at the same time. We got through one duvet cover, two sheets, two pairs of pajamas (Toby's), three bath towels, countless wash cloths and two pillows. The pillows had to be chucked out but it's a small price to pay to save the rest of the carpet and mattress. Toby can't quite make it to a bucket yet so the pillows had to stand in for one. As did my cupped hands at one point. I guess that's just what parents do.
J came home on Sunday and we all had a long nap in the afternoon and an early night. Now J's home and we have heat so hopefully things will get back to normal.
Something happened the other day at the Aquarium. It was a tiny thing but I keep thinking about it. There were some other little boys standing next to Tobes at one point. They were a bit older, three maybe four years old. One of the boys asked Toby his name and when he replied the little boy turned to his friend and said 'Booby! He said his name is Booby!' They then started laughing and saying 'Hi Booby'. Now, I know kids do these things and I wasn't upset but the look on Toby's face just broke my heart. He desperately wanted to be liked by those boys and join in their laughter but he sensed that they were laughing at him and he didn't know what to do. He looked at me with a confused, slightly worried expression and I just smiled and said 'Silly boys' and he was OK and smiled and started laughing too.
It just reminded me how vulnerable he is and made me think about all the things in the future that will hurt his feelings. I remember reading once that having children is like letting your heart walk around outside your body and that is so true. Tobes has probably already forgotten about those boys but I don't think I ever will. It was the first moment that I realised that I won't be there to protect him all the time. The first time I truly realised that he's going to grow up and go out into the world one day. Oh my god.
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