Just did another pregnancy test and got another negative. I think that's it for this month and I'm absolutely gutted. I really thought it was happening and was even daring to let myself daydream a little bit. I think I'm reaching the end of my rope and have made an appointment with the doctor to talk about it all. It's been almost a year since we started trying for No 2 and I'm ready to take some tests and maybe get some answers.
This is one of those situations where the NHS is a nightmare. I'm not sick, I'm certainly not dying so it will be considered low priority. Because we already have Toby I know I'm going to have to fight for any attention. I'm dreading the whole experience but I think it's time to just do something. I've booked my appointment with a doctor at our practice who I know has quad boys via IVF so I'm hoping that he'll be understanding. Either that or he'll just think I'm being frivolous. I can't imagine what he and his wife went through before finally having IVF. It's not like in the US where it's so readily available.
I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow or even tonight after pizza and cake for dinner. I think it's just been so hard this month because I really believed it was happening.
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i'm so sorry that this wasn't your month... i'd wax poetic about it, but don't want you to punch me. trust me when i say that i know how you're feeling. :) big hug and get ready ta boooooooowl!
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